(Written for my healing after losing my cousin Judy)
Judy you are missed


I thought I had years

before that word was

uttered on your behalf.


My childhood friend

and cousin we would play

for hours on end.


Sharing quesadillas under

the Arizona sun.


Years have passed leaving

youthful games behind.


Has it really been

so long ago?


As of late…we began to reacquaint:

of lessons learned, who we’ve become,

and how it all relates.


Not a week has passed since

we talked of the lessons

still left to learn.


Now the conversation

takes a different turn.


Why, were we too blind to see

this was our chance to say hello

and goodbye all at once.


The sky heavy with despair, all day,

spilling its tears for you. As have I.


There was so much more to say.

Before goodbye.

©Delaina Miller February 4, 2012


6 replies
  1. Golda Miller
    Golda Miller says:


    It seems there has been so much loss lately. Sorry that you lost a cousin and friend. After long illness, accident or sudden death – it all seems to be so difficult and makes our hearts ache. I am sorry for your loss as I didn’t know Judy at all. Each wonderful person leaving this world is a loss for all though. Your words of poetry are beautiful and I hope more in her family are able to read your words as they are so lovely and could provide comfort. I hope it helped to get those words out.


    • Delaina
      Delaina says:

      Thank you Golda;

      There has been a lot of death already this year with our extended family. I so appreciate you being in our family and the love and support you give to me.
      I hope my words can bring her family peace too.


  2. Rosemary Nissen-Wade aka SnakyPoet
    Rosemary Nissen-Wade aka SnakyPoet says:

    Dear Delaina, I know that the dead are only a thought away, and that she will hear you if at ay time in the future you talk to her in your mind and say those things. Her answers will come into your mind too, probably in the guise of your own thoughts. Trust them. (One of the other things I am besides a poet is a psychic medium.)

    • Delaina
      Delaina says:

      Thank you Rosemary;

      I will. Thank you for reading my poetry and sharing in the passion,

  3. janice K. Nez
    janice K. Nez says:

    I sit here and feel peace from your words, Delaina. How special and loving those words are, true friendship and that bond which family/friends can develop and share. Thank you for those words, as I thought of my dear loved ones that have passed before I was ready to say goodbye, myself. May your heart be comforted in this sad time, but I know our family/friends are in a better place rather than in pain. Memories are what we have to keep them close, and I think of my departed friends often. I will keep you and yours in my thoughts and prayers.

    • Delaina
      Delaina says:

      Thank you Janice;

      I am so happy to hear that you felt peace from my words. In this life we share so much and yet we isolate our hearts believing that it is only us that feels this pain. I have lost to many to believe in the myth and know that if and when I am feeling isolated it is because I forgot to share my-self. I almost lost the courage to share these poems but I am so glad I found it again.

      Thank you for your kind words, support, and for your love.
      May my love and the love of others be returned to you 10 times over,

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